The waiting days…

For those who don’t know, we are expecting our third baby…any day. It was a shock and surprise last year to learn our family would be increasing. I’ve always wanted lots of kids, but my age and our small house, and limited income made me question that dream. Working, homeschooling and juggling two active kids, is already a recipe for burn out.

I dreaded adding more to my overloaded plate! But as I was reminded, every child is a blessing from God and He sustains us, through each of them.

So we recovered from the shock, sorted our attitude and got on with it. Then the morning sickness came…Ah, Lord I don’t think I can do this again, I thought as I spent days in bed, or barely able to function, chugging magnesium and ginger and just trying to put one foot in front of the other. And then the Morning sickness subsided and I was able to think clearer and start planning how we would fit 3 kids in a two bedroom cottage. It’s a jigsaw we are still working on!!

I gained a bit of extra work, at a local school which helped, and provided a distraction for me on days I was finding challenging.

Dancing Girl and Train Guy were both super excited about a new sibling, and that helped us to be positive.

I got out my crochet hooks and made a blanket, I sorted through years of baby clothes (and shed some tears!), and baby accessories I had not gotten to sort out (praise God we still had most of what we needed!) and we have been slowly decluttering, and organising. We’ve weathered doubts, fears and frustrations, one of our cars has died, our bedroom ceiling has cracks everywhere, my husband needs dental work, our garden seedlings got decimated by bugs, and we have a leaking tap which just can’t be fixed by our own DIY, all as I head off on leave to await our new son and our supplies slowly dwindle!! These things are keeping us humble, and helping us trust that God will provide and sustain us as he always has.

Now we are in these waiting days…for the day God has chosen for his gift to arrive. Every morning we wonder, ‘Is this the day?’, but always the answer is ‘wait’. Waiting is growing, it’s acceptance, it’s anticipation. It’s humbling. It reminds us that good things are coming, it builds our Hope.