“Seeing that a Pilot steers the ship in which we sail, who will never allow us to perish even in the midst of shipwrecks, there is no reason why our minds should be overwhelmed with fear and overcome with weariness. ” ― John Calvin
Somebody sent me the above quote. I was not ready to hear it. At least, my mind wasn’t ready. I was so broken from the breakdown of a relationship I believed in, that I felt like I was shipwrecked. Somewhere between the warm sunshine on the sand and the cold deep ocean. I hadn’t sunk completely. But I remember feeling like I was close to those waves that would engulf me at any moment. I felt like I was smashed into a thousand pieces on a rocky reef and there was no way of picking up the scattered pieces of my heart and life.
But tear by tear, day by day, step by step, through the patience, gentleness and love of family and friends, I started to see that I had to hold on.
I had to grasp the hand of the ‘pilot’ and trust him to steer, even if it was into the storm. And when I could finally let go of the fears crowding in on me, I could see his peace shining like a beacon through the fog. All the scattered pieces no longer mattered, because it wasn’t the ship that I held on to. But it’s Captain.
I read Psalm 46 a few days after I felt like my world had crumbled.
Listen to what it says in Verse 2:
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging
God is within her, she will not fall
Verse 7 & 11:
The Lord Almighty is with us…
He reiterates that NO MATTER the circumstance, no matter the trial, He is there. He never leaves. We should not fear.
And it was what my heart needed to hear. Even in the midst of a Shipwreck.
And He never let me go.